what's it so far

there hasn't been any new developments since i last wrote in this blog nor much that has the potential of being new, unless you count the books and the baseball that i wanted since i was little.
i was sick and still am... but barely so.
i have been sick since last Thursday, which i had to skip school on and Sunday was a holiday as was the week after that. right now in malaysia, its saturday the 14th, and tomorrow i'm going on holiday at Terrenganu, Pulau Redang. for a week. so i wont be in school for another week. because on the week that i had my first bout of fever,its monday and tuesday i was going for pra-sports.
pre-sports for sports day. so as of this month, i have and am going to skip school for three months.thats like summer holiday minus 1 week. so i'm gonna be really behind in my work when i get back. i am also going to miss two cheer practices and i'm gonna be dead once my captain and co captain gets their hand on me... which is estimated to be around....2 seconds of my arrival. its not like they dont have enough on their minds so far. the form 1s are decidedly pain in the butts but that is compared to us... maybe the seniors are always going to think their juniors pain in the butts. since they do have the tendecy to be shy and unmixing with the senior... ceh ceh baru 14 dah nak berlagak senior.
well it is true. the 'juniors' do treat us differently than they would usually do if we were the same age.
well... most of them anyway.
as i was saying, the form ones in cheer this year are kind of... gedik and mengada. which means, they are being pathetic and acting like drama queens, like, oh my god!!! the senior yelled at me because i did not do what they asked me to do! so right now i'm gonna complain and get them burned!
that kind of pathetic and i think you can also say, bitchy.
not all of them but a select few. they also dont get it when the captain and co are scolding them cuz of their ignorance. they just ignore it.
not all but a select few. i dont think we will win this season. cuz the girls aren't working together. no team work or co operation at all. including me. i'm workin' on that and so far it ain't goin so bad. i managed to make a few new friends and get re aquainted with another. but in the mean time, i'm gonna chill. and how do ya like my new layout?
i luv it but i'm considering on adding a few more touches to it to complete it.
well ciou!

the secret

yesterday, we were talking about plants and how they respond to stimuli. the process is called tropism.
there are three main forms of tropism. hydrotropism,geotropism and phototropism.
water,gravity,light.
there is also nastic movements, which means the plant responses to touch at any direction. eg;
Mimosa Pudica.
i started to wonder why a human's life cant be the same?
i rather think that it is,yet we made it complicated.
school is created to mold us into citizens that would fit into the system of the world. we complain but are still forced to be molded because we realise that it is the only way we can live in tis world.
sometimes i wonder whether we are going to ruin the very world that we tried so hard to build. all in the name of money.
we are becoming a money driven society, and we do what we do to survive.
but i know that life dosn't have to be like that. you make your world. if you think to much about money, then you're in trouble, because your life is only going to be about making money. so much that you forget why you want to make money in the first place.

is this it?

last week there was a chess competition at our school. so the guys and girls from other schools came to our school for the zon keramat level. naturaly i we didn't think about it the least... the part about the guys that is... we (me and my friends) thought that they'd all be nerds... as in genuine geeks, we judged by the saint john guys's chess team, who are all incredibly nerdy.
of course i should have known that high school chess players aren't any difference when it comes to versatility of types. meaning not all of them were that bad looking. i should have known, after all i played chess and i'm certainly not a geek. neither were they, not ALL of them at least. which makes me wonder, do appearance really matter in anything?
in school most of the cool kids have so much potential to do anything they want. yet they shy away from it because of peer preasure and fear of making an ass of themselves resulting in them not learning anything. how can you learn if you don't make mistakes?
sure they're ambarasing, but it is only so because you care about being ambarassed.
the chess dudes are the ones who are supposed to be the cool ones because they are the ones who step up and do all that they wanna do, not caring for anyone else's business but their own.
i'm not gonna bad mouth the cheerleaders because i'm one of them. i also understand that what our co-captain said is true. chearleaders are like any other people, we are just like the olahragawati's and the netball girls.
in my opinion this is indeed true but society was the one that made chearleading a big thing.
in western or european countries chearleaders are to be hit cuz they chear for guys to raise spirits, the guys misinterpret it as us being damn easy... so in the coming generations it became so because the girls were changed by society, society was the one that made us 'cool' and the girls put it into their heads that this is true. don't get me wrong, the spirit is still there but so is the "i'm so cool attitude". not all chearleaders but most.
so what exactly is "cool"? is it a bunch of people who are stupid enough to fall for the ad's in the magazines made for making the big guy's money? a bunch of people who gave into society and was stupid enough to care to much for their reputations?
yeah right!

the new year as a rat.

its the year of the rat!
the other day fly F.M. had this thing called the 'pagi' show where they ask people their opinions on different things everyday, and this was about the new year, do we live like a rat or live with a rat to be prosperous this year...
well, currently i'm practicing both without realising it, partly because the rat decided to test my and my mum's patients and decided that since it was their year the can gnaw anything it wants... its funny cuz all these years we never had a single whisker in our house... apart from the cat which is now hopelesly adicted to friskeys's whisker and even that it snuck in.
as for the living like a rat,
the rat likes to live in a damp and dark place. well the house is dark most of the time cuz we're not there. and as for the dampness, a few years ago our old neighbour did something to his side of the roof, our side was and still is affected so when it rains heavily, the water drips in.
and i dont think it'll be a prosperous new year this year, cuz single's torture day is comin' on the fourteenth and i dont think i'll get any, that's an ultimate low for a girl unless she dosen't care.
and i sorta do, i mean i don't get fretfully upset if i don't get one, i'll just feel bothered.
i'm officialy a reserve.... yay!
hope i can make it to the main stream b4 cheercom...
but for now, i have to go study for my exam...

golf and a bitch

last friday instead of going to klcc with my friends ( mum forbid), i'm at the bukit jelutong golf practice area thing watching my mum hit M's
i was editing my essay and starting a new one, which i would publish shortly, when my cell belted out tokyo drift.
i took it and ash was on the other end asking me if i really called this freakishly anoying girl in my class a bitch (which i didn't...now you know) i said no. i did not (as you already knew, but i have a talent as to repeat thing several times) what i did say was that she was vain ( at this point ash was upset cus i didn't).
this was the story,we were in class and i was trying to do my work, can't to noisy.
anyway, fat mango (FM) was talking about food (as usual) then that girl said in this really...really... REALLY anoying and comanding tone "can you please stop talking about food azra?! i know you are the queaen of food (referance to our choral speaking skript) the way she said it was very anoying... and the tone... sometimes i think she speaks through her belly and stress it on the throat, it was so anoying and rude and distracting, that i turned around and said "suke hati lah dea nak cakap pasal makanan ke ape ke hak dea,mulut dea" which translates to "its up to her what she wants to talk about, its her mouth" and she gave me this look which is short of bitchy and said " you boleh jagan sampok tak? mulut you macam orang tua" which translates to "can you please now interupt me like that, your mouth is like a granny's" ( which is weird cuz she was the one with the sharp tongue and bitchy attitude) i replied
"kau ingat mulut kau tu mude sangat ke?"
"ye memang!" she replied
"then you perasan" i said turning my back on her anoying face

that translates to

"you think you mouth is that young?"
"yes, definatedly" she replied
"then you are very vain" i said

so basicly i told her that her mouth is as bad as a gossiping nanny's, and that she is vain...which she is.
its not like i hate her, she can be tolerable at times... rarely. but most of the time she's bitchy and controling, she thinks she can tell anyone what to do just because she is a prefect... no wait she was already like that before but it got worse after being a prefect. i really don't like people telling me what to do when he or she dosen't actually have a right to. i've tried to egnore her but now everyone wants me to be class conductress because they don't want her to be. cuz she's all show. but the problem is that, i don't want to because i like being on stage and doing my expressions then down there with my ass facing the crowd.
i've pointed out that if she becomes conductress it would be a win-win situation, cus she gets to be conducteress and if she does we can burn her if she steps out of line and if she can't take it and quits it would be a win for us.
i have no idea but i think thaat she needs to get her head to earth and i would want to do that because i dont like being stepped over by someone who isn't it.

olahraga

i'm not in. because the teacher who said that he would hold another audition for us when we told him we couldn't make it to the first due to other tryouts... but we were still interasted... very much so in entering and we also have teh talent to. but when the results of the other tryouts were confirmed we wen't to ask him about the track and field one... he said that the audition had closed 2 weeks ago.
i am mother fucking angry!
how the hell can he do that?
he sad that there were many other girls who were short listed for under 15...
let me tell you. all the stars of last year aren't there. so the runners must be form one. they can't run. some of them can beat the form two but i guess we will never know since we won't get the chance.
if he had a brain he would have given us a chance to compete against them... because we brought medals to them last year, we made him a popular choice for any sport. and he is telling me that i won't have a chance because he was dumb and he is not going to get as many medals as last year. i am willing to commit. i will put olahraga in front of cheerleading!
it does not make sense that a person who made zon cant compete in an interschool competition because of not being given a chance by someone who said he would.
today is the final audition and he said that only those with names down can compete...
if he had a brain he would let us compete in the final audition to test us against his 'FINEST' final athletes.
this is not th first time he fucked my mood of. last year when i won first for high jump and not hafsah, whom he trained before and while practice is on. when i won instead of her,i heard him tell her that i only got number one because i was tall. while i worked my butt of literaly to pass that pole.. i guess he does have an ego which is bigger then his brain...not that that is saying much.
as you can guess i am mother fucking damn cuntly angry.

i really hope that those athletes are good... or he'll have a big FUCKING huge ego wound which i will rub salt onto...more than needed.

ideas and blisters

so i'm currently working on my commonwealth essay... as well as trying to keep up with my homework... not so hot for my fingers... my middle finger is blistered and so is my abdominal muscles... the cheer aerobics thing started last tuesday and i must say that trying to be flexible when you're eight is easier then trying to when you're thirteen. i'm not really that upset over it.. at least i can now do a cartwheel and a headstand...almost.

anyway, about my essay, so far i have changed the topic twice because i cant decide what to do. i have loads of ideas on three of the questions and i keep considering each after writing another.
so its not that easy... i just consulted teacher and she said i should go with the 2nd one... so i guess so, cus the first one had 300 words, and i havn't even intoduced any characters... like the classics.