growing up

lately, i have not been on blogspot that often due to lack of time,readers and inspiration.
i have been preparing for cheer comp and i had exams and math tuition and piano classes and book check and that marathon next week(wait... its THIS week!) and a carnival the week after with a replacement class of 2 hours math tuition with mr patrick (who still struggles to understand my jokes and am suprised the first time around that i was malay... and a reader and a cheerleader, which for some out-of-this-world reason rymes) and then my piano exam on the 18th nxt month not to mention my birthday on the 7th.

as you can see, i am busy. but that is not an excuse...well it is but it sounds noble when i say it isn't. this all gets me wondering how time went by. i can legally ride a motorbike next year!
and it seems sureal that 2 years before all i wanted to be was a teenager, now i am and i have to live it on the fast lane! the last year and 7 months and 21 days went by in a blink (a millisecond)
so here i am feeling hurried. of course i love always being busy (i get sick when i dont do something for to long) yet i cant help but wonder how weird and strange it will be in 3 years time when my uncle comes home from england and i would have had my 1st boyfriend(as faer as my family knows) as well as a part time job while waiting for my SPM results. my cuzins prob wont remember who the heck i am!

yikes! PMR is next year. i guess it is kinnda facinating and misterious the way i dont know what the future holds for me, nor do i remember most of the past. yet i am also detached from the present for if i am. i would be god (which i clearly am not... for those of you who are confused and hapen to be muslim terrorist bombers, dont blow up my school, i was only stating that if you were to be conected to all of the present then you arn't human...and its impossible because there are to many things going on in the present for our little human minds can grasp)
maybe thats why we need to be selfish and only care what is hapening in our life...

on that thought,
ciau

the perfect man

i have this favorite movie called the perfect man starring hilary duff and heather locklear and it tells a story about a girl who's mum is so desperate for a man that she would hook up with anybody, and when he proves to be a jerk and dumps her,she will move taking along her two kids and their luggage. the eldest daughter,holly (duff) at 16 has this blog... and that is where i got inspired to start a blog.
i started a blog with the tittle reality bites and another with the title deep thoughts... i deleted both and started this one... my mum has a blog to and i pointedly stay away from it, and she stays away from mine so that we can have a private life....well seeing as both of us are as much always together like book and glue...the pages in the book need glue to become a book and the glue needs the pages cuz its needed to form a book.
yeah my mum and me are tight, sometimes disturbingly so, i dont even have a social life cuz my mum is always working to maintain our lifestyle... she is a doctor but in malaysia that dont really matter cuz the doctors in malysia are STILL the most poorly paid in the world... oh yeah and the oil prices finally hit malaysia and the rush to the oil station began...which i think if fairly stupid....the people who actually line up for the cheap petrol before the prices hike up. and they are causing a jam because of their stupidity...
what is stupid you might ask?
well, first of all you waste time,energy and breath from swearing at the guy who cut the cue
2nd of all,you are making other people waste their time and energy when they are not even going to the petrol station!
and thirdly, how much money can you save?! you line up in a jam to the station and lose your cheap petrol then you get there and fill in the cheap petrol then you head back out into the jam and lose the cheap petrol again excessively...causing you to return to the petrol station again the next day to load on the hiked up petrol price petrol...make any sense?
so anyway, back to the point which i am stretching. spend time with my mum a lot but still we try and keep things from each other...knowing that we do.if that makes any sense.
one of the things i cannot discuss with my mum is guys...sure i tell her bout the losers who flirt with me(in person...i'm not talking about myyearbook or facebook...wait there are some losers there to...but not all) most of the losers flirt with me in person...
i heard that only losers flirt with good looking people cuz they often attract jerks... i have a different theory....in my country most of the guys are jerks...well at least most of the malay guys...most not all. now let me tell you how they flirt.

the typical would be a bunch of guys yell at you stuff, mostly to insult you or they do that annoying sound with their lips like they are sucking something....
those are the ones that i got... i had two face to face flirts...one when i was 9...so i dont think that counted and another last week...he was doing this promo with papers...he was okay but nothing i'd be dreaming about...mayb ein a nightmare...

what is wrong with me?!
sometimes i think i am a jerk magnet cuz most of the guys i meet in malaysia are either jerks,rude,no class (and i dont meen high class i mean the type where you dont act like a bastard),dumb,3 heads shorter than me with a big ego or cute,single and buff without a brain or sense of humour that matches mine.
yay!!! i'm on a role. i meet a few guys online who rock but then i feel i'm not good enough for them or in fact not good enought period...sad huh?
then i do meet a guy online who i like but hapens to be on the other side of the world....wait, all the guys i'm interested in that i meet on the web are not of the same country....they mostly live in the us or england... i have a weekness for brits.
so this is the question, will i find the perfect man and does he even exist?
girls give me some opinions and boys... between yourselves do you think a perfect man really exist of is he just a female's fantasy?
(even if katie seems to be the only one reading and commenting on my blog and the rest of my friends who read this is female, males are also wanted to comment if one of you,with exeption of aqil hapens to stumble onto this blog and read this particular article...aqil you are welcome to)

ciau!

ideas and blisters

so i'm currently working on my commonwealth essay... as well as trying to keep up with my homework... not so hot for my fingers... my middle finger is blistered and so is my abdominal muscles... the cheer aerobics thing started last tuesday and i must say that trying to be flexible when you're eight is easier then trying to when you're thirteen. i'm not really that upset over it.. at least i can now do a cartwheel and a headstand...almost.

anyway, about my essay, so far i have changed the topic twice because i cant decide what to do. i have loads of ideas on three of the questions and i keep considering each after writing another.
so its not that easy... i just consulted teacher and she said i should go with the 2nd one... so i guess so, cus the first one had 300 words, and i havn't even intoduced any characters... like the classics.