the carnival (continued)

imagine not seeing your best friends or your friends for 2 years and 7 month and then get invited to a carnival where everyone is there... i dont know about you but i'm scared!!!
ever since i moved schools i have not seen capoeira in person... nor yaya,adam,wan,fakerie or any of them... well suraya dropped by once in a while, but other than that.nada.
now capoeira invited me to the carnival where they are all there, i'm scared cuz i'm afraid that they'll be a stranger to me,even capoiera!
i'm afraid i'll be there and watch those who were previously close to be become distant, i bet if i re-read this i'll bang my head on the door cuz of my stupidity, so note to me in the future when i read this, dont bang my/your head on a door or on anything, it's stupid.
i wonder if what i fear does happen if i'll just walk away realizing that they aren't real friends or if i'll cry like a dud. i think i'll do both, realize they are not my true friends and maybe cry or despair at the fact i have lost at least a part of me that has been there since the begining (am i being to over dramatic?). i guess maybe only time will tell. and i guess if i lose my old friends i'll at least have 5 true friends to get me by. aazraa,ashileen,nicole,dhivya,fuzzy,sucjita,hanani and alia (hey, i said at LEAST 5).
ash (ashileen,granny) says that she wants to be friends up until the point she can introduce us to her grandchildren as auntie or aunt.
on to other news, my left earplug for my i-pod is busted, the whole main casing peeled of (i guess i gotta use my mad money to buy new ones...and when i do, i guess i'll have to buy extra ear cover for the buds and stop bringing the it where ever i go (except to school).
talking about school, today we have an experiment that requires us to bring chemical stuff from home (shampoo,baby oil,soap,detergent,lip gloss, etc...) to test its pH value.
cool, now i'll be able to know how toxic or acidic my lipgloss is! hhmmm, i should have someone to bring coke.
more about school. yesterday we had this fire drill (latihan kebakaran) at school and the fire fighters came and showed us the way to extinguish fires and which hoses in the truck is to be used on what type of fires (house or car) and told us we were faster this year (of getting the hell out of the supposed-to-be-burning school) then last year, the record for last year was 12min something seconds, this year we made it 5min something seconds...
and then this fire fighter showed us how the fire hose works.... then asked us to hold it... i did (along with 10 other people) and i pulled the hose upward so we had a mini shower.
that was fun, but one thing that did not turn out right were the fire fighters (who the hell says that fire fighters were cute?)
anyway i gotta go.
ciau

the carnival!!!

the BJ high school carnival is next week and i'm going!!!
i'm so exited to meet my old friends after 2 and a 1/2 years of not seeing each other. especialy by best friend, i have not seen him for three years... makes me wonder if we are best friends...
i just found out his fav colour last night (yeah i'm a hopeless bestfriend) i'm not sure he knows my fav colour.
anyway, tomorow is the "merentas bukit nenas" marathon thingie and i have to wear a xavier shirt (green sports house) when i'm in adele (yellow) but it's all for safety.
i've got lots of work to catch up on and an oral test for english...about water pollution (i know, i would have picked a more interesting topic but my partner had to cuz i have to write the script and the whole thing was supposed to be a team effort) so i let her pick the topic, then later all she has to do is memorize what i write.
its supposed to be a conversation but the thing is, how the hell do you manufacture a conversation...a CASUAL conversation about water pollution and using perfect english?
so not natural, i guess i have to ask teacher if i can use a bit of slang words to liven it up a bit.
ok gotta go and work on casual conversation!

oopppssss...

so get this, i'm in my classroom talking about the vampire diaries with manisha and suddenly she asks you about the ICAS english test....
if i was taking part i said no....
i took part in the new south wales english test...
apparently they are the same thing...
shit, and guess what the exam is taking place today! at 1.30 in lab 6 and 5.....
holy crap! i forgot about that!!!
i totaly forgot about the test...AND the study part!!!! i hope i dont fail!
the reason i am not studying right now is because there is no material to study... that is not in my school library. since this is an extra test and not the main one... holy holy holy mother of crappiola!
not just that i woke up this morning with my usualy sinus...but mr sinus decided to stay longer. and then i burped... in public!
i was in bank negara's library (still am actually) in one of the booths and burped... there was a lady (buisiness lady) in the booth nest to mine i'm pretty sure she heard. i have a sneaking suspicion she was already disgusted by the fact i was sneazing my nose off. so i pretended to dash for the toilet, like i was gonna puke to excuse my burp... now i think about it,is kinnda dumb.
oh well, that's life. oh yeah i was passionately reading the end of the vampire diaries book 1 and put it down when i finnished (it took all my self control not to continue with the 2nd book) i put the book down and rummaged my bag for my science homework... i got the book out and checked the index to see what i needed to do and then, i reached out for my pencil box to discover that i left it in the car...great.
oh well, i ain't gonna go all the way down for that!!! the homework ain't even overdue.
anyway i gotta jet.
buh bye.

growing up

lately, i have not been on blogspot that often due to lack of time,readers and inspiration.
i have been preparing for cheer comp and i had exams and math tuition and piano classes and book check and that marathon next week(wait... its THIS week!) and a carnival the week after with a replacement class of 2 hours math tuition with mr patrick (who still struggles to understand my jokes and am suprised the first time around that i was malay... and a reader and a cheerleader, which for some out-of-this-world reason rymes) and then my piano exam on the 18th nxt month not to mention my birthday on the 7th.

as you can see, i am busy. but that is not an excuse...well it is but it sounds noble when i say it isn't. this all gets me wondering how time went by. i can legally ride a motorbike next year!
and it seems sureal that 2 years before all i wanted to be was a teenager, now i am and i have to live it on the fast lane! the last year and 7 months and 21 days went by in a blink (a millisecond)
so here i am feeling hurried. of course i love always being busy (i get sick when i dont do something for to long) yet i cant help but wonder how weird and strange it will be in 3 years time when my uncle comes home from england and i would have had my 1st boyfriend(as faer as my family knows) as well as a part time job while waiting for my SPM results. my cuzins prob wont remember who the heck i am!

yikes! PMR is next year. i guess it is kinnda facinating and misterious the way i dont know what the future holds for me, nor do i remember most of the past. yet i am also detached from the present for if i am. i would be god (which i clearly am not... for those of you who are confused and hapen to be muslim terrorist bombers, dont blow up my school, i was only stating that if you were to be conected to all of the present then you arn't human...and its impossible because there are to many things going on in the present for our little human minds can grasp)
maybe thats why we need to be selfish and only care what is hapening in our life...

on that thought,
ciau

aches and pains

we have finaly started practicing everyday since cheer comp is up next month and my whole body aches! we have to practice from 11.00am - 12.30am and then from 1.30pm-3.30pm in total that makes... 3 1/2 hours per day, i'm not realy complaining... if you think this is complaining then i recomend you not to be around when i'm having PMS or BDS (bitchy day syndrome)
my mum has now rebaned me from going on the LRT (light rail transport) cuz i forgot (yet again) to call her when i reached school, she freaked and by the time i called her i found out she was on her way to my school. so then when she picked me up at central plaza yesterday i pissed her even more cuz i lost my touch n go card which had 45 bucks in it... she went on and on nagging all the way home (30 minutes out of 45) then i pulled out the card from in between the seats and she told me to switch it with the one in the smart tag.
teehee it was lucky it was there she treaten to pull me out of cheer cuz of the card. (cuz it takes a lot of my brain space). seriously my mum is so against cheer but she still lets me join the team cuz she wants me to be able to make my own choices...she still makes it hard for me...like trying to pull me out the 1st chances she gets.
sorry i havnt wrote here for a while... i've been busy.
oh yeah, i gotta tell you something funny. i a war with this guy, he always calls me pervert... i call him an asshole. he calls me a pervert everytime i pass his bus and one day ash (my bestfriend and she is a girl) dared me to go to asshole and say "are you free tonight, cuz i'm feeling hot and sweaty" which is slutty to say the least. so i did it (not cuz i'm like that but cuz she dared me) well, i tried to. when asshole walked pass i called him but he egnored me... now that was ambarasing. then his friends shated calling him grampa or "atuk" and then i called him chicken. so the day after that i took a diff station. there are two stations near my school one is 'DW" and the other is "MJ" these aren't the real names of the stations. i normaly go to DW but that day i went to MJ cuz ash wanted to splash su with water for some reason, i think payback for splashing her with water...
so anyway i was almost at the station when i heard a bus and the word pervert being yelled out, it was asshole! i cant believe it!!! its like he is my own personal ghost! i really cant believe the fact that he actually spotted me in the midst of all the other girls! oh well, one of his friends made a rude gesture and i yelled "oh! thats VERY mature" and walked off.
i really dont know why he teases me so. i mean, my friends say he likes me and i'll say bollocks!
if he thinks this is primary school then he can just piss off!
but in the ,mean time, i still have to go through with the dare...bollocks!
oh yeah and i changed the pics on 'about me and around me' hope you dont find it offensive like the last batch was!
ciau!

my really bad last post

yikes! what was i thinking?!!!
my last post totally blows!! and not in a good way..
hmmm... maybe you guys should re read my post entitled "the waiting room"
or read it if you haven't already. but plz comment on this post..
thanks
ciau

complements to the chef!

i really dont know why the title of this post is as so... it was just at the top of my head.
so anyway i'm thinking of writing for the school magazine... problem is i dont know the editor.
last year cheng sim knew the editor pretty well but i didnt know that form 1s can go and try to get their article in the paper...plus i know actually realize that i was actualy intimidated by them... being the high fliers of our well reputated school (which by the way, from the standing point of a student is only great by reputation)
yes the standarts of convent bukit nenas (pineapple hill convent...yes i am aware that it sounds funny, kind of like spongebob squarepants) are falling rapidly and the reputations are the only thing keeping us up...that and our choral speaking and debate team.
there are miscreants who are tottaly hopeless academicly but very good at dating...mostly in the evening session...
ok for those of you not from malaysia (that is to say you aren't born in malaysia) that are not familiar with our weird acadamic system let me explain,
we first go to kindergarten at age 4...or was it five?
so then we go to real school at age 7, its called standart 1.
then we proceed to standart 2 and so on until standart 6, where we have our UPSR (ujian pelajaran sekolah rendah) or (the test that tests all that what you learn from standart 1-6)
now, standart 1-6 is at a seperate school from those who have taken their UPSR (13-17 or18)
its called "sekolah rendah" (sekolah means school and rendah means low...but when you out it together it does not mean low school but something like school for the young...a class down from the older students)
so when you get your UPSR results, which consists of 5 subjects (science-sain-,math-matamatik-,malaysia language writing-Bahasa Malaysia penulisan-,malaysia language comprehention-Bahasa Malaysia pemahaman and english-inggeris-)
you go to high school or form 1 (13 YO) then form 2, form 3 (where we taka the exam PMR, where we get tested on what we learned in form1-3 and if you get good results lke all 'A's then you get to choose a stream...science stream or art stream which will be tho course of your career)
in form 4 you learn the subjects in your choosen stream for science its, math, add math, biology,physics,chemistry and so on for art stream its the rest...art, science litrature. if you are in any stream... like science stream for example, you get to learn a subject from art stream if you want to, this subject will be an extra subject in your SPM which you take in form 5.
in form 5 you take your SPM which is like the brit's GASTCs(i think thats what they call them) and the american's SATs. if you do not pass with good results that will qualify you for uni, you take the STPM in form 6...or if you wanna stay to further your studies even if you passed your SPM you can...but most dont cuz its hard to get into university if you stay.


so back to the point, in my school form 1&2 are in evening session (12.45 pm-6.45pm) the students are not as great as the seniors...and this year i'm in form2 so i have juniors... and man, this year's juniors are some lot...the majority are gedik (or overly girly or so most people say... i think that gedik means bitchy...so i dont call the girly girls gedik just manja...but they dont know that),malas (lazy) or totaly hopeless...of course they aren't all like that...just most.there are the choral speaker who are now reprisenting our school in state, the hockey girls and the netball girl (the senior team in netball are the real stars).

sorry about the spelling mistakes and so on, i'm using a library keyboard which i'm not used to using... cuz i normaly bring my lap top to the library (note this is not my school library).
so anyway i'm coplaining about my school cuz my two week holiday is over and i'm going to go to school at 11 (my dance group practice...black rose, we are doing a show on teacher's day...the celebration is this friday i think) and i hate to go backto school...back to grumpy teachers and bloody girls pretending to be it...now that enoys me!
i'm now reading the cronicles of narnia prince caspian...and proceeding slowly...man i miss elex rider and maximum...i heard the 4th book came out but i haven't bought it yet...
and then there's that new anthony horowitz book that is #4 in the power of 5 series...
and then there is twilight and the works...i'm not sure what the saga is called but i heard it is a fantastic book!
i cant wait to read it!
okay i think i better stop before i rant on more on this already very lengthly blog post...ciau