bullies

I'm at the library of my mum's morning work place at BANK NEGARA.
it was a normal day albeit a very cheerful one. I went up to the M floor (i have yet to find out what M stands for and probably another week to spell it correctly) to put my stuff down at my mums office before coming down to the Ground floor to the cafe, in order to buy myself some breakfast.
after all this, i went up to M and took my stuff and headed towards floor 1 to the library, when the lift came, it was reasonably crowded so i frowned... then a voice from behind the lift said "don't worry you can fit in"
and when i was in another voice replied to the first one i cant really remember because i was so angry at what she said... but it was something like "but it must be hard,with that fatty in front there" and they laughed like the bitches they ARE. i looked to my right and there was the said lady, she looked at me so sad, almost crying and said "sorry" i looked at her as best as i could (she did not look me in the eye) i said "its okay" by this time the doors were already open and at my floor...
i regret to say that i got out... it was so fast and i really only got terribly angry a few steps out, thats when i looked back and saw the door half closed...
i was so pissed that i banged my card onto the sensor in front of the library door. i am angry at myself for not doing anything about it, bullies like that deserve to be stood up to due to the fact that when you do, they start sobbing because the only reason that they act like byatches is because they feel bad about themselves and put other people down because of it.
the lady was so sad, but she should not be... she is smart (she works in Bank Negara), she is kind and she should know that she cannot allow herself to be bullied just because of her weight!!!! and those WOMAN who humiliate her, i pity you, someone like you must not have much of a life if you are busy sticking your nose into other people's buisiness, i do not CARE that you work in Bank Negara! brains is no use if you are going to waste it away on remembering and nosing into other people's life and i dont CARE that i am just a school girl at least I live my OWN life without bothering others who have not done anything to bother you!
and to any of you Bank Negara workers who read this, please tell your friends in office to read this and them to tell their friends to read this...
there is a bully amongst you ruining anothers life with insecurities, i'm sure you all are busy, but please try...

the carnival!!!

the BJ high school carnival is next week and i'm going!!!
i'm so exited to meet my old friends after 2 and a 1/2 years of not seeing each other. especialy by best friend, i have not seen him for three years... makes me wonder if we are best friends...
i just found out his fav colour last night (yeah i'm a hopeless bestfriend) i'm not sure he knows my fav colour.
anyway, tomorow is the "merentas bukit nenas" marathon thingie and i have to wear a xavier shirt (green sports house) when i'm in adele (yellow) but it's all for safety.
i've got lots of work to catch up on and an oral test for english...about water pollution (i know, i would have picked a more interesting topic but my partner had to cuz i have to write the script and the whole thing was supposed to be a team effort) so i let her pick the topic, then later all she has to do is memorize what i write.
its supposed to be a conversation but the thing is, how the hell do you manufacture a conversation...a CASUAL conversation about water pollution and using perfect english?
so not natural, i guess i have to ask teacher if i can use a bit of slang words to liven it up a bit.
ok gotta go and work on casual conversation!

the system

i'm still banned from the lrt which is sad cuz i've got sports' day auditon...today.
the good news is that i wont miss the tryout completely.... just most of it.
and tomorow my track and field tryouts for mssmkl and my 1st practice with a coach are overlapping. my T&F starts at 11.15 and the cheer thing starts at 11.30

my mum finishes work at 11.15 so the remaining 15 minutes are for me to get to school...
i think i have to miss the cheer thing cuz i'm already on that team but the T&F is still uncertain...

the system in our school is as such (the timeing) that a student can only do one thing at once... no wonder Malaysia isn't producing any multi-taskers or any quick witted people...
Yikes! this sucks!