olahraga

i'm not in. because the teacher who said that he would hold another audition for us when we told him we couldn't make it to the first due to other tryouts... but we were still interasted... very much so in entering and we also have teh talent to. but when the results of the other tryouts were confirmed we wen't to ask him about the track and field one... he said that the audition had closed 2 weeks ago.
i am mother fucking angry!
how the hell can he do that?
he sad that there were many other girls who were short listed for under 15...
let me tell you. all the stars of last year aren't there. so the runners must be form one. they can't run. some of them can beat the form two but i guess we will never know since we won't get the chance.
if he had a brain he would have given us a chance to compete against them... because we brought medals to them last year, we made him a popular choice for any sport. and he is telling me that i won't have a chance because he was dumb and he is not going to get as many medals as last year. i am willing to commit. i will put olahraga in front of cheerleading!
it does not make sense that a person who made zon cant compete in an interschool competition because of not being given a chance by someone who said he would.
today is the final audition and he said that only those with names down can compete...
if he had a brain he would let us compete in the final audition to test us against his 'FINEST' final athletes.
this is not th first time he fucked my mood of. last year when i won first for high jump and not hafsah, whom he trained before and while practice is on. when i won instead of her,i heard him tell her that i only got number one because i was tall. while i worked my butt of literaly to pass that pole.. i guess he does have an ego which is bigger then his brain...not that that is saying much.
as you can guess i am mother fucking damn cuntly angry.

i really hope that those athletes are good... or he'll have a big FUCKING huge ego wound which i will rub salt onto...more than needed.

ideas and blisters

so i'm currently working on my commonwealth essay... as well as trying to keep up with my homework... not so hot for my fingers... my middle finger is blistered and so is my abdominal muscles... the cheer aerobics thing started last tuesday and i must say that trying to be flexible when you're eight is easier then trying to when you're thirteen. i'm not really that upset over it.. at least i can now do a cartwheel and a headstand...almost.

anyway, about my essay, so far i have changed the topic twice because i cant decide what to do. i have loads of ideas on three of the questions and i keep considering each after writing another.
so its not that easy... i just consulted teacher and she said i should go with the 2nd one... so i guess so, cus the first one had 300 words, and i havn't even intoduced any characters... like the classics.

the system

i'm still banned from the lrt which is sad cuz i've got sports' day auditon...today.
the good news is that i wont miss the tryout completely.... just most of it.
and tomorow my track and field tryouts for mssmkl and my 1st practice with a coach are overlapping. my T&F starts at 11.15 and the cheer thing starts at 11.30

my mum finishes work at 11.15 so the remaining 15 minutes are for me to get to school...
i think i have to miss the cheer thing cuz i'm already on that team but the T&F is still uncertain...

the system in our school is as such (the timeing) that a student can only do one thing at once... no wonder Malaysia isn't producing any multi-taskers or any quick witted people...
Yikes! this sucks!

greek myth

god! i'm dying because or this oral test! my english teacher gave us free topic and i chose greek mythology...the gods in particular.
no offense to the greeks but the gods didnt do anything but give birth and make love!
and zeus had nothing else to do but have affairs! i know his father tried to eat him but he can't be that messed up... he mated with his own sister! i mean,gaea had a reason to mate with her son! it was because she had to keep the generation going! but zeus! huh!
first he worked hard to get his wife which he succeded to do by turning in to a lame bird to take pity from the pre wife... so she put the bird to her breast to warm it, then zeus turned into his normal form and raped her... then, to cover her shame she married him.
how did he celebrate his victory? by fucking more goddeses!
yikes. when i saw the family tree i flipped. i tried to print it but only a quarter of it came out so i had to copy it manually.
it took me four A4 sized paper stuck together (two top,two bottom), to copy them!
guys you gotta wish me luck with this!

nothing is impossible

i tried out for cheer one day after i tried out for netball and right now my thighs are killing me softly. i can hardly sit down or get up without them hurting. i am also banned from the LRT because for the first time this year that i forgot to call my mum the moment i reached school...she banned me. so, sadly, i cant go for the olahraga (track and field) tryouts next tuesday morning... nor the cheer practice that starts next week... yes, i got in and i still cant believe it!
i'm suprised as hell... but then again i'm probably gonna end up a reserve anyway...
other than that not much hapened to tell. i excidently dailed a number and wasted my credit... this guy probably heard the 'conversation' with my mum this morning... he didn't know who she was but he STILL thought she was my mum... he told me through text... kinda weird that i dailed a number and it turned out to be registered... even more weirdly to a guy...
................. he just called me... bugger. he knows i'm a school girl and that i dont want to have anything to do with him and he asked me where i am...
to hell was i going to tell him! i dont even know him! why the hell would tell i tell him my name and where i am... he could be a pitofile for all i noe! jeez! maybe when i was younger i would have fell for it but i know better now. ever since i endded up coupling with my bestfriends cousin by mistake!
like EW!!!!!
i still cant get over that!

so, talking about guys, last week i went back with ash (who despite her nickname is a girl and one of my bestfriends) ,debs and fiona throught the back way to Dang Wangi (which in english means 'nice smelling shit') LRT station when i said this one guy was cute... ash agreed and they somehow got it in their head that i have a crush on him... so they told dhiv who i think might have a crush on him to. i guessed when she came to my class to give me 'info' on the guy and here's the low down... he's malay mix, which i was right in guessing he was, what i didnt guess was that malay blood was mixed in there... malay guys dont tend to be cute... unless they're mix. so i dont really care about him until dhiv mentioned that the guy went around wearing tights and glasses... that either means that he's athletic and smart, dosn't give a damn what people think of him or quirky which interests me... i'm not into looks its just that he is interesting. c'mon!! how many guys who you see (not including rugby players) who wear tights and pair it up with glasses? it intrigues me. i like interesting guys... look at my ex bf's the first is a bookworm who liked transformers and also a funny guy...and has puss in boots eyes (which he doesn't do anymore since he now has a cat to do it for him) and my 2nd who coupled with me after meeting me... he was a mistake.... a BIG mistake, collosal.

so, i know i said i don't want to have a boyfriend this year... but maybe...just maybe i might have to change my mind... i have to get to know him first, then i can decide.

mistake left unspoken

last year i was a complete bitch to this girl who used to be close to me...
i know you think this is somewhat direct but i am direct and so is my writing.
at the begining of the end of the school year, i realised my error. how i made people get to me.
so through my holiday i decided to stop caring what people said to me... i didnt before about stuff like what i wore and how i act but i now discovered people can get to you in other ways and a single comment can set a whole heart of hurt.
yes she hurt me in a way but i did not realised until one single comment from someone. i don't recall her name and yet i know her or i would not have listened to her.
the story starts like this. i met this girl who was my mum's friend's daughter at her mom's shop where my mum was giving her an injection of somekind...or was it a check up?
i don't remember. well anyway i met her and we were the sdame age and we got along great.

so i started my school year at C.B.N high school and on the first (or was it second?)day at the school sitting next to her mum. turns out she was going to school at C.B.N to. i was very happy. so this girl joined the chearleading junior squad and in the begining i i didn't mind. then when midway to the compotition this gilr pointed out to me that ever since my friend started practicing she was starting to get distant...as if to ditch me. in the begining i thought it was totaly untrue but the more i think of it the more true the words of that girl sounded...now i realise that it was because she (my friend codename iris) was socialising more and i was selfish to think that she would not... that was my first BIG mistake. i decided to get far away from her before she hurt me... 2nd mistake. 3rd mistake was that i started to listen to girls that said iris was this and taht and at that time i belived them... now i know i was stupid (i know this sounds dramatic but this can hapen in real life and is has) how can i listen to other girls opinion when i've known iris to be a very kind and nice girl who is not a bitch and knows her bearings and never will forget them. i started to say bad stuff to and now i really feel like poking a metal stick through my mouth. well, as you guessed the girls told iris... they really do see to like catfights... or maybe it was habit... of course iris heard about the things i said and said bad tings back...
at the begining someone told me that iris said something bad about me and that kindda made me even more angry... how stupid of me. it was only natural that she made a comeback at me... i would have done the same.
so yesterday i told iris that i was sorry i was such a bitch last year and i told her the deal but now i realise that i told her my fealings after the comment and not about the comment itself... so i've got to work on that but i don't think she will forgive me and hey! i can't blame her. but i told her i missed her and so and so. i was not ambaressed to admit it to her... i was completely wrong...what i did was wrong.sorry when meant isn't easy to say... it took me the whole train ride to get the guts to say anyting...
but when i did i felt as if it was useless because even if she does forgive me and we become friends again (which i don't think would likely hapen) i wonder if i ever could forgive myself for being the very thing i despise. so now i guess i've learned my lesson... and know the power of words even more than before...
i really don't have any more to say about this...so bye

still no scoop on my holiday...for y'all that is

guess what being as useless as i am due to the fact that i have no time to do it despite of being on holiday (that in efect yesterday but now in fact i'm back in school and determined to 'work it out' this year), i still haven't saved my holiday pictures to my flash drive. so no story on the holiday... i'll have to do it soon through cuz sooner or later the dang teachers at C.B.N are gonna give us mounds of homework... not to mention pressing us for our holiday homework (the H.H as i call them) which as espected,i haven't completed...well i've done reserch for my sivic class and wrote down 5 recipes for my home ec. class (which apparently i have to take since we took acountancy last year,we being my class and the gals in the N,A,W,P classes..so likewise the B,U,K,T flers are taking acountancy this year)
i've done my english homework,since the holiday homework was to read AT LEAST 2 books... i read around ten...more or less so i've got that in the bag... or at leat i will once i get the nilam book and write it all down because i'm not sure if i should continue using my 3 form 1 books or buy a new one for form two. so i'm gonna go to school today and ask...
other than that i haven't touched my math homework...in fact i can't find it nor my B.M( Bahasa Melayu),my agama islam (Muslim Studies),nor my science...which i also cant find...shit i better find it and complete it before the 14th or i'm gonna start on the wrong foot with my new science teacher (new if my old science teacher decides to teach another class,otherwise its fine cuz i'm not that bad at science and i havent shown any trouble in that particular class.... damn i'm toast if its the other teacher....